“Have you still no faith?”
I feel like the Father has been saying this very scripture to me. Hard truth: I’m such a lost cause without Him. I worry, I fret, my thoughts are consumed with me–my worries, my doubts, my desires, my insecurities. It’s a self-centered universe of my choosing, and I don’t even notice or blink an eye. But then, He tugs me. I resist. Sometimes I want to hold onto my selfishness. Who knows why? “To err is human.” Someone famous said that.
Then I literally crumple at the realization that once again I’m trying to control my life, my outcome, my circumstances, and well, it’s not working out that well for me. In fact, not only is it not working well, but I’m crying, I’m mad for no good reason, I’m ungrateful, it’s just not a pretty picture. I don’t know why I let little things throw me. Big things happen, and I’ll usually seek wise counsel and ask for prayer. Little things, and I just rant and rave and privately seethe in my own little corner. Maybe you can relate, maybe not. But I know this: we’ve all been in our feels, and we’ve all felt the draw back to Him. He never gives up on us! For this I sit, and I’m so so thankful.
So, if you are having one of those weeks, you are not alone. If you are having one of those weeks, you are STILL so loved by God. He KNEW our nature. And he still chose to send his son. And he wants GOOD for us. But our call is higher. His promises are greater. He is calling us to arise in faith. He is calling us to cast it all on Him and step out when he calls us, even when it’s not easy. It just doesn’t work any other way.
So, today I remember. I remember all the ways He’s saved me and shown up, and all the ways I haven’t been able to save myself. The promises in His Word are so good, He even planned it all out. His deep love for us knew there had to be a reconciliation of our nature. His “hope” for us was and is Jesus!!! And after He saved us from ourselves, He sent His Holy Spirit to be our helper and comforter, and to even pray for us when we can’t. It was a two-part plan that is so miraculous it’s almost unfathomable. Hallelujah, and thank you Lord!
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.
2 Cor 12: 9-10
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Father, help us to rely on you in all things, big and small. Father God we submit to you as LORD of EVERYTHING. Let us rest in your promises and your goodness, for we know you are SO good. As you bring your goodness in our lives to our remembrance, we praise you with a thankful heart. As we fast, purify us of selfish pursuits and create room for more of you and less of us. Send YOUR POWER in our weakness. Thank you for never giving up. POUR OUT YOUR SPIRIT that our lives glorify you in every possible way. In Jesus name, Amen.